Wishing to hear his voice...

I really do miss Fredrik with all my heart but living in pain of not having him at all. I miss everything and especially him. I miss old days and I miss his love that is actually an imaginary dream from the moment he left me.

I wish I can hear his voice and see him again on skype but it’s impossible I know.

I’m crying because I still stuck and can’t move on. Because I’m not easily forget things that way.

I know I’m always being a dreamer but all I wish is I can hear and talk with him but it’s too impossible.

I know that he don’t love me at all and things about us is just ended.

I was just longing for my smile and giggle the way he makes feel so special and I feel so glad everytime I’am talking with him and seeing him. But not all the things we want and asking can be granted. It’s sad that even I pray so much regards this it cannot be or it will not happen.

And I know he forgotten me so easy by cutting our communication and everything is so quick to remove on his own.

But the memories we had last and I still cherish that. (Crying…)

I’m not asking so much for him to be back coz I know he wouldn’t want even too and I need to accept that but I can’t what my heart say and I do felt that way.

But even if I know you don’t want to see me or even to talk to me at all I always pray with you that you will be ok and your life will change the way you want it. I just maybe missing so much those old days we had and I treasure all of it. I’m still keep writing you a letters even I know you don’t want to receive it so I’ll just put it on the box where I can keep it.

I miss you and I do really love you even you break my heart… (Shed of tears)