The Face of the LOVE i Painted

Fredrik didn’t know that I have this picture. This one is one of my favorite and appreciates not only as a picture but an ART for me.

I didn’t own it I forgot where I got this one; I guess I only have chances to see this when we are friends on facebook.

The first time I saw it I really fall in love how the picture give me the impact to adore it in Artistic way. This was actually the gift that I want to give him in digital painting texture for our 6th Monthsary supposed to be. (Sorry for stolen this photo).

Every photo he has is adorable for me and I told already that he is the most handsome guy in my eyes. He’s everything for me and the love of my life. And I love everything about him and specially him. He’s like an Art too for me and I love to share everything I know and passion in art.

I love his smile, laugh, joke and funny face. He’s crazy guy but in charismatic way.

But there is no him at all, there’s no crazy guy out there who can make my heart beat and sing were I feel the harmony of LOVE given for him.

There’s no us at all, he don’t want a mess at all. He doesn’t want an incapable like me.

If its not meant to hear my wishes in many gods, in many stars, in many angels and even the universe to ask and granted to love you and love me too. Just be sure you’re safe and started and getting to be better it’s enough to know and hoping let them keep you lift up and save for those things you don’t want to be. I’m not capable to save you or make a big favor or anything, even the smallest part of praying you with faith and all my heart I know it will sent in heaven to guide you.

And I wish and do forgive me too if I hurting you in some way or some part that I didn’t know. You will be healed, you will be ok and soon the truth reveals that you really don’t need a burden like me. All the best wishes for you… And I know you don’t have reason to find or search me at all.

Still I love you… Because when I fall in love in Art my heart, soul and mind is dedicated to embrace it. And it’s also same the moment I fall in love with you and my heart given more even to sacrifice the result of the journey we’ve been through it’s sad but you need to walk away from me. And another sad part is to teach myself to accept that but I don’t want it, still not accept it.

I’m still in hurting process and I guess there’s no cure and no one can save me. I lost you and I lost my heart after all.

And all I can hold for is only the memories and leaving and stay for a while. Because I don’t want the time comes when I reach the point I wake up and accept to forget you for me there is no turning back. (Crying...) Mahal na mahal kita