He Don't LOVE me no more...

Moving on is not easy, some people advice you “MOVE ON” and forget it. How can they easily say that because there is not the one who is currently in the situation on how you feel.

One of the hardest things is when you miss someone but he/she doesn’t miss you the same way. I feel it actually.

I know the situation turn into the way which is not what I want or expect to be.

The last time I remember to talk and see Fredrik he told me that I have the big space on his heart. He does miss me and I saw him smile wearing his white top shirt which is fit for him. I can still freshly picture the registration of that smile.

But then after that there’s no hi or another hello follow. It’s tough that relationship ends easily that way and he is learning and in the process now to make his own way being busy and making his life without me.

I guess long days are enough to assure that he don’t love me at all and whatever we had is just a short simple fun. It’s like when the time you don’t want it at all you can stop and say enough its end. I wish I can simply say and do that easily.

Maybe he loves me only that moment we have good communication but when the time comes he don’t want it at all he can just say sorry and decide on his own.

I love him, I do! Either he wants me or he hurt me still the same. Even I don’t want to see myself like this still I love him and no excuses. He’s the one who unhold and decide to break things up. But not me I try to fight but do I have the right to fight for him when he doesn’t want me at all.

All I can do is loving him on my own way even he didn’t feel it nor not seeing me at all. I really do want too; want to be staying those old days. Those communications we have I do misses all of it and specially him.

But I should learn that it’s clearly he don’t love me at all. It feels like every day passes by I didn’t know him at all. And I don’t want to come the time that he is a stranger sooner or later. I’m truly hurting day by day I’m crying, all I can do is cry and cry and cry. It’s like a hundred smiles I have turns to a thousand cries for him.

Even if you don’t love me at all Fredrik and you completely chooses to stay away and forgot me it’s really hurt, really really hurt. (Crying…)

My heart will never ever forget you and still continue loving you even you don’t love me at all. I was covering with the happy memories we have even you left me a wound and scars, either you make me smile, laugh and cries still all I know is I love you. Even you don’t have enough strength to fight for me but to fight only for yourself.

With all my heart and soul I LOVE YOU.