A letter for PRAYER

I always send my prayers every time I think Fredrik. Since were miles away and seldom and the possibility is so small to talk and seeing each other like before. Before I sleep and when I wake I include him to my prayer.

That’s the only thing that I can do to him at all. I don’t under estimate the power of prayer and having the faith to believe for wishing the good.

I miss him so much but there’s nothing I can do to fill that feelings because he don’t have time for me at all to talk for or even reason to give his time for me. He’s time is running and important only for his priority.

Although I’m still wishing the stars and praying that maybe he can still have find some few even a minutes for me. Assume that I’m still having importance for him but it’s not. I cannot help him and I don’t have any reason to be with him. It wasn’t so clear for me yet that everything we have is already done.

DONE.

I still love him and living from wishing world that someday he will be back and realize everything. But it will not happen because he finally far from his own way living without me to his journey. And it’s so sad that he already use to it that he didn’t miss me at all and can able to not think of me.

(I still feel the hurt and pain inside of me)

Who I’ am to assume and think I’m very important for him? I’m just only an imaginary dream in which impossible and will not able to make some things for real, for us.

But let me just make you a letters where I can able to put all what my heart says day by day. Tell about my pain and tears. Where I can put my prayers and love for you. Even I don’t have right to send it to you at all. Maybe you’re tired and annoy of these non sense letters.

This is the only way where I can able to show my feelings and love when I have a very small chances to be near enough to tell you how much I love you every day.

If the day comes you forgot me. (Crying…)

I always here sending my prayers for you to find the happiness you are seeking and the peace of life in terms of letting you feel tired facing over and over the struggle you have in life.

I will never forget you I will promise that as long as I have my heart for you, you will always be remember. And if the Universe doesn’t granted the wish I have to be with you, granting what is good for you will be enough to know. And I know it takes me for so long to learn and accept that I lost the most important and best thing I had even a short time but endlessly love for you.

I never thought that I can love more than before for my mistakes when I find those wrong people who pass by. But I understand the purpose until I finally have the chance to open my heart for you that is almost perfect but the situation and wrong time knocks and breaks the chances.

I want you to stay and my heart want to stay but I was the one try to insist for nothing and there’s no sense at all. Because every single day, passes by I do really often miss you and love you. I really need you so, I don’t want you to let go, leave me behind this way and comes that you forget me.

(Shed of tears…)

I know you’re far but it makes me feel you’re more far away in this way, in this situation. I wishing you those things with you will be ok as soon as possible and you will be fine. I will always pray for you and I will do that if it’s the only way that I can do. Take care of yourself and even were not destined to be with “To the deepest part of my heart I love you so much”. I love you Fredrik I will never tired loving you even if you don’t love me at all the same way.