Loving you this Way...

It’s been so long since what happen with me and Fredrik. I still make unstoppable letters for him day by day. I pray for him every day, I think of him most of the time. I miss him so much, I miss everything and I miss loving him.

I still love him and I do love him. He is so special to me; I know I cannot able to throw things easily all what happen to us.

First I’m so thankful for everything since we started to share the love and care both ways. I still keep making a letter for him, even though I cannot see him or talk to him I can express all the feelings I have for him there. Even I cannot send it to him at all. I really do love to know he will read all of it.

But I don’t know how at all in our situation.The moment he break me up no chance at all to be connected like before, because things change situation change. I miss him, I miss being with him, I miss knowing myself that I have him.

And I love him, I love him so much. And this is the only way I can love him by my own. And even if it cause me much pain and hurting when things ended up of our relationship.

Still it’s not easily forgotten him and replaces him. He is remarkable guy I loved. And wherever he is and makes me feel he is more far away than before, my heart is truly dedicated and love him genuinely without any doubt. Sorry because it’s hard for me to forget and unhold all we have and believing alone by myself that he is truly worth and deserve to love for.

I’ am still thankful for many memories we have and everything. It really makes me smile and feel enlighten seeing those pictures we have and what he taught me. When I trying to get back the happy days.

And it’s really a happy place to look back. He is wonderful man and wonderful guy I’ve known. I was torn apart for everything the sad part and happy moment. I love him so much. I love everything about us, about him and about the love.

But then I forgot what exactly it’s about that things are already done.