Written by Hand made by Heart

The truth is I'm still write you a letters...

I still keep going making some letter to Fred every day. Since we already lost the communication like the way we have before even if this way I can still express the language of love, the feelings I have and the thoughts on my mind that I want to write just for him.

My hand never feel tired of making letters on him, I remember that I should always make one for our Monthsary so even if that way I can make him feel special and memorable. I love letters but I make letters only for the person I love and this is the way it is, this is me, old cultured or old fashioned type.

I make letters for him even if I cannot able to send him at all. I know soon the moment that time comes and I have this bundle of words of love in my letter this will be serving such as sweet memories. This note was dedicated to a very very special one.

I don’t know if he still interested at all for this to read for, or consider such as waste or whatever. But every single letter is truly where I put my heart just to tell him day by day that I LOVE him so much. And it was written all of them.

Every letter has emotion and made by my heart.

That letter is truly dedicated just only for him. Every day and time pass by this letter leave how devoted my feelings for him.

I always make simple things like this but for me it’s a treasure, it’s the way how I want to express and make him feel my thoughts of love every time he had this in his hand and read.

But not at all, I known the moment he break me up my letter will cause of disturbance for his own way of fixing his self. It will remind him so much pain and lead him in wrong way where he wants to be in good path.

I’ll just keep it who knows, I won’t be tired making letter but if the time comes that the chances already ask to stop I will keep all of it. But in the box where all of the things that remind me of you and we had I will keep it there.

I miss you not just today but every day and I know you might not feel the same way but here…. Here in my heart every time this heart seeking of you I try my best to fulfill the way I feel longing with you. Staring at your photos, praying with you always that God will always be there to lead you for good and I’ am seriously ask him that don’t let him forget you to guide always and fill your heart with courage for yourself.

And last making this letter by my hand which made from my heart and putting all the feelings I have and writing those words how much I really love you.

I know it’s crazy but for me loving you are the best feeling I ever had after all the long way of journey I’ve been thru. Even if we get here this way failed and we break up, loving you is not a wrong thing but always a wonderful gift I had.

And I LOVE YOU, all you gave to me that very moment and the memories are truly a gift.

(Shed of Tears…)