He knows Where to Find me...

It's hard for me to choose to walk away too; it's been a month since I wasn't heard about him at all.

Maybe he forgot me already and never wants to see me at all or talk.

There are so many times I wait the possibility he might ask how am I? Or just drop to say Hi.

Is it he completely wants to erase all what we had? Or it’s easy for him to forget everything.

It's hurt to think this way; it's truly painful he doesn’t want me at all on his LIFE. Crying for long time and days is not enough but my prayers for him every night and day is still keep going that no matter where he is please let him feel safe and ok for all the hardship he is shouldering at the moment.

Wish I can carry half of it so he might feel better. I have lots of things hoping about him.

I know he don’t want to be connected at me at all. And how many times should I understand the moment he already erase me on face book and not talking at all a long days.

Why is it not completely clear for me it’s almost done?

My HEART wants to win him back, my hearts seeking him and my soul saying he is the only one I belong to.

But if I will be another reason for him to feel heavier on his problem I should rather or must keep away myself from him.

I don’t want to do this but I choose to block him so I wasn’t able to visit his profile, just to stare even a minutes his photos that I can able to view.

I don’t want to chase him at all coz I clearly give the freedom he wants, but that’s what he wants in which for me I don’t want too, I don’t want to lose what we ARE as an US.

I think over and over, fight myself to do this, it was hard my mind telling me to do it while my heart fighting and takes time to argue blocking him.

And suddenly I did but that’s not really what my heart wants.

No matter where you are Fred, the truth is I don’t want to hurt you and feel the same feeling as I’ve hurt. I don’t want to see you cry, be in pain and feeling down.

I want you to be a strong man, have the courage and faith, and be loveable father, friend and a nice man. I want you to keep the faith inside of you to hold on for all the good things you believe and always the Universe will lead you for the happiness.

And if I’m not belonging or include for that happiness I should keep away myself for not ruin your LIFE at all.

But I'm still here and i know you know where to find me.

May the angels will always be with you and guide you. May the lights you are missing and looking for your Life comes up and hoping it will not be so long.

And the moment you realize and think about me "I am just always here for you."

"I try to look back to the remarkable memories we had and all I know everything until now is precious. Hoping and praying you for a better place. You might forget me but here I' am never ever forgetting everything..."

Love Rio