Step this Alone...

I don’t want to be alone but this is what exactly where am I right now. I’m with silence of Pain. All I can do is cry over again.

The entire smile I have before and laugh needs to pay for tears.

But I felt that my tears are more than the smile and laugh I did. I’m getting empty, I’m almost lost for everything I have to take for the strength I need.

I’m trying to make my own, Step this alone, I’m cold and my heart freeze in damages. I need shoulder, I need to walk for a while and see a spark of hope.

I need to see the spirit and reflection of fighting for this. But where should I start to find it? I’m alone, I’m lost and everything is stuck, all words I have is truly negative because of broken heart I have. I’m drowning and helpless.

I don’t know if I’m stepping the wrong way.

Wishing the chances that I can correct things if I done wrong being with him. Because I don’t want to be a broken hearted, in this position and being this. I’m fighting so hard without him; I don’t complain for this but let me just not to be in this part.

Because I know how I love him so much in this heart of mine, words is not enough to describe to prove that but yes it is. And it’s a long way to get through this, why he leave me this way, how can I carry this all alone?

I wasn’t yet find the answer those unstoppable questions I have in mind. I can’t breathe every time I feel he’s too far at all. Very far like me starring above in sky. And never have him again.

Because he chosen and need to leave me. And all I know is I can be burden too and additional hardship for him.

He stepping far away but here I’ am try to wait even if I should step this alone with everything.

I still love him and me always asking the stars to have the chances to start over again if it’s not that late. I need and I want him to be in my life. And I keep him inside of me. I love him so much so please I’m asking the universe to let him back to me. (Shed of tears)