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The Heart Ache

  • JazzrellRio
  • Apr 9, 2015
  • 2 min read

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This day it’s like I don’t want to wake up even if I only have an hour of sleep. My eyes are aching due to unstoppable tears. And now I just woke up and cried again. I want to sleep for so long and wake me up when time already passed by to forgot bad times or bad memories. No one else in this world want to be alone, broken and down. Love is the best feeling ever while were living. When were young all we want to know is have fun, play in the grounds and wanting toys and colorful thing. We actually not paying attention about to fall in love, grow up and being someone that makes us happy. And I’ve been there, now I was really looking for love, someone who can share my life and everything about happiness. It’s really simple as that someone who can able to accept and able to love me the same way. I find it but it’s always takes me in the sad ending. Or else it always has consequences that my fairytale is just only good for dreams and fictional but sadly it’s not for reality. I’m tired I’am so so tired giving all the love I have. If there not cheating at me, they don’t have enough strength to fight for me. I’m losing all my strength to believe at all.

I guess it’s all true, funny though that a person like me who is boring, too much to love when I fall and old cultured type. Outcast because I’m not a modern type who can flirt and give adventurous sexual desire. I wonder why it’s really not enough, I don’t want to be in hate but I hate being in this position. Of being alone, leaving by someone I love the most.

I don’t blame anything that happens on me and what I did but let me just give some justice to be happy too I find all the things comes on me is always a blessings but it always left me pain and hurt. I wish it just a bad dream that I was broke up by the person that I loved, so when I wake up it’s just a dream. Only a bad dream. But here I’ am its happening can still remind those words and can’t forgot the word when he say “I wanna break up with you, I’m so sorry”, (crying at the moment...) It really really hurts to hear this and I’m still can’t forgot and cope up. My heart rip, it’s bleeding and it’s like I have lots of wounds that can’t take it alone.

And no words can describe to explain how the pain feels like. I’m drowning in sadness because the sun of my life was gone. It’s like raining, cold and such a massive storm is currently happening. I don’t have umbrella and shelter to protect myself. I’m sodden, feel cold and alone. True love is truly distant for me; I’m not worth to fight for. And I need to learn that and accept. I don’t want to be a broken hearted one but look at me, here I’am lost and alone… (Crying…)


 
 
 

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