No expectation but it feels like Magic

Hello 2015, hello new life, new challenge, new me and new journey. Sometimes expectation turns us to disappointment. I’ve been through in many failure and meeting wrong people or let just say people doesn’t match enough to understand my perception in life. They find me boring being myself keeping on the box of security. I’m telling you that many times how boring I ‘am to those guys because they find me too much protective to myself, hard to trust and too much open regard about me in terms of my belief and personality. I guess there is nothing wrong about that being me as myself and nothing to pretend for. I may not be the hottest, sexiest or daring type they looking or interesting person that can easily considered as inviting sex symbol for their eyes. I’d rather be proud to be the most boring, hard to get type person and intimidating coz I’m always know my limit and boundaries. But you never know what’s inside in every box of gift. Sometimes gift wrapper looks lovely but did you think will you ever like when you find what’s inside of it? I keep my lesson and remind that thing happen about me regards of trying to know people. Life never ends in failure or disappointment. Journey will never stop but you can rest if you feel tired. But it always takes you to keep going to explore, learn and understand things in Life. And each of us wants to be happy. And I do want to find my happiness too in life. If will come and knocks in the door of my life.

We often have different feeling when we meet people at the first place. Sometimes we got impress, sometimes we feel bored, sometimes we asking for more them to know, we find it interesting and sometimes it’s hard to explain but it’s like magic. I’m not a kid anymore who impress in magic literally magic. But it was actually amaze me when I feel the magic beyond myself saying he’s an interesting person, mysterious in other side but interesting in many way. And here I go again trust my instinct of telling myself that he is the one. Try to know him; try to find things that give you a reason to keep in touch with this person. I’m not asking for the most handsome guy coz I know myself how simple I ‘am. All I want at the first place is respect, the attraction of showing me the courtesy of being appreciable type of person whether I ‘am interesting for him or honestly say I ‘am not for him. A good listener, calm type person and polite manner. Seeing me a nice person or otherwise a human but not a sex symbol. Or having a reason that I ‘am interesting for him because of sex, sex, sex and always sex. It’s not about lust that I’m looking for or having fun. I ‘am looking for real life, a one of a kind hearted man who will be proud having me on his life and accept all my flaws and imperfection as being an old cultured type person. Understand my innocence, filled my heart and taking care of my LOVE tank. Guiding me in good way and let me experience and explore that love exist for deserving people like me. Knowing my worth and willing to value my unconditional and overwhelming love for him. I’m young I know but I don’t want to play or having time to play or wisely say I don’t like to play my emotion or people emotion. I might be too seriously young for not having interest to flirt or have fun with many guys as much as I can. But I ‘am really not likes that. I want to treasure every moment of my life to share my love to the person who are willing to love me the same way. Who seriously want me on his life, who wants to feel the magic and spark of care, passion and endless love. But did you think there is really someone who is destined for me to be like that? I’m not asking the most perfect one coz even me are not perfect too. Simply just I’m asking is the heart that accepts me and loves me. That in time when I fall for him I will love him the same way and offer, give and share my heart with love, life, body and soul without any doubt just to be with him. Only him and take the risk and be brave all the trials of our love story. But I don’t have expectation at all because all I know when the time comes it will feels like magic. Everything will be unexplainable but you will feel its unbelievable finding him as one of the best person you’ve known on the first place and you’re having many reason to keep going on knowing him more and more. So no expectation let keep the river flows. And no matter what and where it goes just enjoy the moment and treasure the real magic in your own Life.