Dr. Carlito

As I said I need to get back to start, or back to scratch finding interesting people. I might not have chances to meet many people who can understand and might interest on me. A little few are exist. Who is Dr.Carl? I meet him is social dating media and have the chances to talk and getting to know a bit about his life and share mine. I know, I have a long description of my profile where everybody doesn’t have time to read and understand things or details I put it there. Coz mostly is so visionary or just focusing how the person looks like in photo.

Again and again he meet me in the wrong situation, because I’m in the process of finding my self and finding things to cure or heal everything I have from what happen recently on me.

I’m a person who is very open to share my stories and how I really feel. (I don’t know if sounds bad or bad for people for being real and telling the truth). But I often and always do that and I don’t really care if they can’t able to accept it or how they understand things about me. All I know is telling the truth, lying doesn’t give you good benefits. No one for sure wants to live in Lie or pretend. Better to accept the benefit of being hurt in return or maybe being happy in reality living in truth.

Carl is a nice person; one of the most adorable personalities he had is being so in love with her Mom and being proud. Being close and appreciate the most important woman in his life. It’s truly adorable seeing a Man keep his heart open and putting his mom on his heart. I really adore you with that, the way of his smile and a bit shy type I find it cool, coz it feels like I really lead him for a good conversation.

His past relationship is also important to know for me and likewise me to him. Sharing stories of your life make things open a possibilities and it will be a good lead to take you both in right place for what the result might be. Obviously he is passionate and romantic type of guy. Sorry to hear about those relationship doesn’t work out at all. But despite of that he looks stronger than me to take deal and challenges in life. Thank you for letting me sees those things to make me believe more to be stronger too.

He truly love the medical field and I never ever forget those word that he want to have a medical mission even once in a week to help those unfortunate people. Kind hearted type of person and showing a helping hand for others. And I wish that you will reach your goal and keep going to your Masteral in Medical field.

You have chosen one of the biggest responsibilities in community not like as politician, of course saving lives of people and helping them to cure sickness and disease.

You have lot of research to do and also you need to have stronger belief than you can possibly do many things regard in this matter.

You have a great Life in terms of your career coz I know you love it; you have a great passion of embracing the medical field. You are like a super hero for saving many lives with your knowledge, care and professional job. Half of your heart is for the group of people who really need you the most. Need your help and rescue them.

The way you talk and smile yes it makes me smile too thank you for that moment making me feel so special.

But one thing that I really don’t understand is to make things in hurry and finding that you don’t understand that I need to help too my self to regain all I’ve lost with my self. I asking to give me time to find my self and learned to love my own so I can able to love too.

Love is no need to be in hurry or to think or make decision so fast without knowing and having assurance. I want to assure that I have feelings and liking you, loving you the same way. I want to find that my interest is really stronger than a normal or casual thing. And it really takes a process to get there.

And I don’t want to pretend saying I love you too without putting my heart, make you living in lie that I want to be with you. I want to be genuine and I want you to do things that make me feel I falling for you. It’s not only about physical attraction and seeing beautiful personalities I have and you have. It’s about connection a special connection that we need to work out or build up. A bridges that we can able to meet halfway and invest the feeling we both have together.

I will admit that anyone can be fall easily to you. You have everything they might want, you have stable job you can able do whatever you want in life. The only thing you need is the person who will love you, the only one who will fulfill your love tank in your heart. I’ am in the same way I’m empty too, but I want to assure not to fall in mistake again. Let me just rest in a very short term and enjoy knowing you but not pushing the limit to be with you easily and rushing.

I’ve never been selfish giving my time to you and keep finding time to catch up. I also understand the job you have and how important the time for you. I do I really understand that, but what I’m asking is understand too the time for me to stand up again and recover for where I was fall in the wrong track. Let me fix first the mistake I have and give me time to know you more than you expect and same way on me.

I never play people and never play on you, you really misinterpret that I was lesser interested to you and wasn’t feel you are special to me. I try working things I try harder and harder, I try finding things and picturing my self being with you but I need time.

The moment that makes me hurt the most is telling me and mention to me about my past “Finding my sensei”, it really hurt me and feels like slapping my face that you are telling me I deserve to hurt while you misinterpret I unvalued you.

You wasn’t really try to reach my part but I keep trying to reach and let you understand that. I did long explanation but you find it it’s only like a short hi or hello for you. I didn’t unvalued you, I did not or intentionally want to hurt you which in fact I want to give the best for trying things work out for what will be the result of it. I want to assure I have feelings to love you and loving you the same way you easily feel for me. But not as rush as you’ve think. Can I have the right to give you the time to develop my self on how I can able to feel on you? Can I have time to let me enjoy being with you and let time and things answer for result and Can I have time to my self to seek if we can able be… I’m afraid already to fall for the wrong one; I’ve learned already that I should not fall without any prove. And I know you are also afraid to lose me that’s why you want me that fast. But I will lose in you if you try to listen first and try things and work it out. I know you do also want to have assurance but we don’t need to be in hurry. I been told you what kind of person am I, what personality I have. How boring I’ am that’s why no ones stay so long on me.

I want to find what’s wrong with me and what should I need to change for and apply the lesson I have recently.

And I want you also not to see your self so rush being my boyfriend but also a friend. A friend that can help me, inspire me too and be with me till I finally realize that you are the deserve one.

But then if you find that I played on how you feel and feel that I’m a fake one. I respect that coz all I know is I do care for your feelings and avoid hurting you coz I been there too. And if it the way you’ve think on me at least I try my best to explain on you.

You deserve to be happy and find the right one for you. And I know you will find the best one not a crap like me and makes you wait and impatiently waiting for nothing.

Thank you for nice conversation we had and lesson and you share to me. Hope you will not stop helping people and keep the flame in your heart with love and care to your patient. All the time we had is enough for me to know you for being such a nice person who also finding someone to love you the same way. Maybe I wasn’t yet ready in a while or it’s too much for you to ask to wait and giving time for me. You really deserve to be happy coz I find that you are a loyal type of person. And for sure your LOVE is always good to be true. Best of Luck Dr. Carl.