Back to my Chatting Life

I need to get back and start over again to find interesting people and having friends. It doesn’t mean that you need to collect or having fun with other people. Sometimes finding people is like shoes. No matter how beautiful the shoes is but it can never fit on your feet and doesn’t feel comfortable, there is no reason to have that because you can’t able to walk for your long journey.

I’ve been thru with many people to talk for. Some are good but mostly are for fun and some are so vulgar and bad to me. But I need to accept that, and I should need to be an observant type of choosing the shoes. Some are nice at the first place, adoring how I look like but never appreciate how I act, some are asking indecent proposal that I always refuse and block them. Some are too fast liking me but never yet know me well, and what else? As I often use to it (BORED) feel boring at me coz I don’t play with them on Cam or talk about sex and sensitive discussion.

Everyone are different individual somehow some are good friends but in complicated situation. I remember I talk someone from New York a nice guy and respectful type. I see the potential but I found out he already have fiancé. And he doesn’t even tell me that matter in which I don’t want to ruin relationship. Because I know the feeling if someone has stolen your man. So no matter how perfect he is no reason to keep going better to avoid him and let him realize to love her fiancé more and keep continue his love to her than breaking up their journey of love. (But still thank you Andrew and I will be happy someday to see you being happy with your future wife)

Still no matter how we cannot find the right shoes for us keep going and find to another store or ask for another design, color or always look for the good quality.

Even though I already know or obviously see that some of them are not really good for me and I already read their personality the way they talk to me and never find interest on me I still learned things about them. Connection is important for me its not about the connection of how we looks like or what lifestyle you have or even you have a high profile job position. The matter is the way you understand, interested both party and how you connect your self and him to you. If the treatment and feelings is mutual I guess it’s a good sign to keep going and time is a good investment for having both of us.

I’m still keep my self being me either they feel bored or not. Because I know myself that being genuine and being a nice person as you are is a good thing. And if those shoes are not really for me I should need to appreciate the matter that it is not for me. Some of them might look for play I know someday time will come and you will realize and find out that you will seek seriousness after.

I’m still thankful for having the chances even once to talk to them or we might have 2nd time around but then after no communication at all. It’s clearly that the only reason why they want me is my look and no matter what else it is they want more on me (Sorry cant able to give my heart, body and soul easily just for fun) There are so many people around there want to play but not me.

There are so many of them can able to fulfill your dirty dream and pretend they love you but I’ am not. Because I ‘m most boring person in this world. Which cannot able to appreciate of passive, playful guy, coward type of person and rude guy.

And no one yet I guess can stand for or liking that kind of person like me.

For those who are nice people I chat in a very short time but do not work out. Thank you still for respect and appreciation, wishing you to find the best for you. And for those who get rude at me I forgive you coz I know there comes a time you will finally realize soon. And you will be tired too playing and see your self doing the same routine but never grow.

Because finding the best shoes with good quality to be with you in long journey and comfortability will give you experiences to walk in long way and grow.