Starting over again for my Self

Do you believe in LOVE at the second time around? Of course I’m done not only for second but also at the third place and so on. There is no reason to get mad in the world just because of our failure in life. Everybody needs love and be loved. And that’s what I seen, and I include myself being one of it. But love is not rushing and like a product that you can get by buying it. It’s not about some one saying he likes you and loves you through his words.

Love is like verb an action word, warm attachment, enthusiasm or devotion. We have different kind of meaning of Love for our own.

I need to start over and I need to make a new better beginning. Be an author of my new book of life. Make a new journey but still keeping good things and change those things that needed. Always giving and trying my best to make my own sweeter coffee of life than before. And consider always the challenges that will come on my way. Expect the unexpected and always keep holding those thing I’ve learn from the past. To start over I need to prepare my self, I need to love my self, I need to assure that I already got back to my self after I lost it and still knowing my goals and want to be. I need to have stronger perception and stout hearted. I need to believe that taking a risk is beautiful and pain is always there anytime for me. I need to plan and fix things that needed.

I need to take photos and keep going to embrace tighter my passion and appreciation in Art. I need to get back to listen to the music that I love to hear and dance again in tune of Life.

Loving my first boyfriend for 7 years and waiting him for 3 years and live and enjoying my single hood while waiting. But then I finally realize that there is no reason to wait at all. I was started to open up my heart to fall again in a very short time for second time around but it was failed. And then unexpectedly and naturally fall again at the third time around and trying my best but I got failed. Maybe I’ve got failed about the result but my heart never failed to love them in real and show my genuine care and value for them. It’s my heart choice and always choice made us for who we are. And I was so happy in every single moment that time. I was fall in long term at first and loving a 2 ghost. A ghost of love but in my world there are real and true. But thankful is always there and Thank you to Dino who are success to his life from where he is. To Lorenz who met already his loved partner and settle down to start his life. And the recent to Brian that I’m praying to lead him for where he is, hoping that he will be okie in his complicated life and give him a wisdom and motivate him more on his life. I would be happy for him someday to know either he got back to his family to live again with his wife or got back to her ex-girlfriend that he really care. Neither of the two as long as it his choice and happy I will gladly being happy for him. I always pray for you all because you are a friend, a friend of my past life, who paint and colored my Life. Through happiness and sadness still I thank you.

Now thank you too, to me and proud that I never played people and playing someone’s feeling. Knowing my limit and always be in control. I need the word Start, new beginning and need to open my door.

I will LOVE even better the next person and still show the same thing what’s inside of my heart. I will surely-enough keep being the same person as being the real me for who I’ am, whether my love is so intimidating and overwhelmed.

Because I know that a new start or starting over and over again is always good for everybody and I know it’s also good for me.