Black Pearl

The moment we have this communication and time goes by I wasn’t notice that I was getting closer and closer on him. It feels like tolerable to communicate with him. For having a strange feeling, I feel glad every time I receive messages on him when I woke up and before I sleep. I don’t know it’s hard to explain but all I know is im happy having a good time with him. I was feel I forgot thing but its okie as long as I have connection with him.

I was telling him about my personality and being emotional type of person is naturally for an artist like me and I know he is too. He is strong in many ways but he also has weaknesses and heart to feel pity with those unfortunate people. And glad I know that, he want to open up to his kid how lucky they are having a good life compare to other people. And its one of the good parenting for kids. (He is a Goodman a good dad and I know he is)

I was telling him how im weird among the common persons, being so sensitive and conservative type. I was telling him that I can call my self as a black pearl. And he does appreciate that. He appreciates me being so different among the other that make my heart beat at first. I was so thankful I find someone who appreciate my uniqueness in which I already use to it that everybody feels im so boring coz I’ am same as other to easy to get and play for. I tell him how many guys I have, guys that I have on my block list coz I often asking indecent proposal and rudeness attitudes. And we just laugh about it, and hoping that he don’t want to be part of it. (Of course how can you be part of it, if I feel that I might be fall for you soon?)

I called him as my soldier coz I feel comfortable now talking with him. The trust he have to me is still stable but my trust was started to build at the moment. Every time I see him on skype if we have chances I often want to embrace him and feel his arms around me. That makes me feel secured and comfortable. (I wish I can possibly feel that in reality). I’ am his black pearl for the ocean and he is my soldier a cute things I imagined. And being with him and listening to his weaknesses I can be his shoulder too and every time he might feel down and weak I wish my kisses can able to fade it all away even in a while. (I wish I have the rights to kiss him)

But then we still enjoyed what we have for a moment and trying to keep going and I feel that way. Either I call my self princess leopard and he is my jaguar prince. He calls me glamazon or any term he wants me to call because for me I appreciate all of it.