Living as Marshall Kleinfelter

I don’t know where exactly he gets that name. But I find it cute and I guess derived from Martial Art the first name. Everything in this world has always a reason. Our Past life is running as memories in our Life. And it feels like he needs to live for a while in shadows. Shadows that need to hide for, but still keep being his self. Why? I’m really glad we had chances to talk our past life. From our stories in our families now the time comes. Talk about our past relationship. He already has idea about mine for having my 7 years relationship and falling in love with the imaginary guy. Now he’s turn. I don’t know the exact details for her ex-gf he already met here in Philippines. But it’s like a story of bitter and sweet memories. Bryan is really appreciative guy, naturally generous and he has the helping hand mentality. He always has a heart for everything that is in need. I know he also feel the pain of betrayal and feel unworthy. For a reason, I know having a goodtime with her ex makes him fall in love much and all sweet memories they have. He was starting to share about me the bad side, about cheating him in a way of money matter. We cannot blame people for being so abusive or careless sometimes on what they did in their life. But I know the feeling of showing interest and value on money than seeing your worth. I understand him but I do as well understand her ex-girlfriend. But on the other hand this thing is not tolerable, it’s not bad to ask help and its not always excuses that you are came from poor life and situation. We have our mind and ability to use it, find ways to survive and make certain things to find solution in problems. Her ex-gf is too young and studying for a while and I understand the way he wants to contribute a help for her ex for the achievement of finishing her study. (And that is so sweet of you Bryan) Despite of what she did you still there and care for her. (But I don’t know exactly if he still in love with her Ex. But I feel it yes he is) because it’s not just easy to throw those memories you have and I know. But we are in different situation. My past already ended up and its been 3 years that I’m waiting, and think that there’s still a chances but then I finally realize I’m the only one who are assume that it can be. The past story of my first relationship ever already closes. But for Bryan things are still fresh and it’s not that easy to forget. Because it just a months ago. I don’t have any right to ask much everything about his past all the things that he can able to share is all I can able to know. And all I can do is just listening with him. (But wish I’ am that person he meet before) or her ex is my close friend so I can able to speak with her and open her mind and advice how lucky she is for having a person like Bryan. And appreciate and seeing all those effort and love he put on her. But yes everyone doesn’t have the same thinking and every individual is different and have their own way. Bry share me about how he got hurt those things that her ex-gf did. I guess it’s also involved about jealousy, flirting and the big impact is the feeling that there is no contentment about what they had. And also a money matter. (I’m sorry to here those things that hurt you, wish I can hug you so much and whisper in your ears that I’ am already here to release all those pain you have, just let me help you and let me love you more than she did). But the past is part of life, all we can do is just think that it’s a memory that we can reminisce or get back but it’s not good to live for. We need to keep going forward and find our ways to grow and find a better door for us. I don’t have the idea how she’s ex-gf looks like but I knew Bryan put her in some space of his heart. And I don’t feel jealous on it. Because he met that girl before he met me and I accept that matter. That’s why I always telling my self if the time comes he wants me to be in his life I don’t want to be his 2nd mistake in Life. I may not be so perfect but I will keep my very best to love him with all my heart. And I know that he have the assurance that I’ am just only for him and my heart. So now I know why he is living in that name not because he is not brave enough but he is not yet ready to show up after all the mistake and pain that cause him before. But either you are Bryan or Marshall I still seeing you without any differences coz you are you like you seeing me as me. ?