The Moment I met Bryan D. Kautzman

I really don’t know the reason why this man came and want to know me. I was actually in the middle of disappointment. After living and believing for a fairytale that I thought Pier Lorenzo is the right guy for me. An Italian guy from Trieste Italy that ive had been chat for a long months but then flirt by my best friend. Sadly I lost him and my best friend. You know the feeling of being down, lost yourself, lost everything, it feels like your seeking for a motivation but there’s no any reason to see at the moment. I and Bryan met in DIA a social dating site and I have the weirdest long profile. I wonder what makes him feel interesting on me after he visit my profile. At first he is trying to make me impress and catch some attention on him. And I felt that there is nothing really interesting about him. Really it feels like he is just a stranger to me that trying to get or want some attention for me.

It makes me feel that he is too confident and assure that he can possibly makes me believe those words he told me at first. As what other people common say to me that “I’m pretty and nice” and I already use to it. The interest for me to him is no there so I shut him out. It makes me feel I don’t need a man that needs to impress me, coz I been in pain and disappointed for my last chat mate. A guy that play my heart and doesn’t see my worth after all I did to him. Bryan keeps his word he will keep trying to know me more. It’s funny because he tried at the 2nd time around to connect again with me after I shut him out. But I insist that I would rather talk to him only on skype if he can. And he made way to be connected and be on skype so I can able to see him at the very first place. Very talkative, still try to impress me, funny and jolly person. Wearing black jacket with his motorcycle and wearing an eyeglass on his eyes. Well I saw him but I’m not sure if he was able to see me at the very first moment we skype. Since it’s against in light he can able to see me coz he only using his mobile phone. I give the chances to him to know me well, we talk a bit good things and he keeps telling me nice words and sweet words on how does he really felt on me. I’m like a wall a wall that he was keep looking for and really catch his attention. Okie I admit I appreciate that, that he see my beauty on his own interpretation. And I feel flattered about it. Now the feeling change when he started to be serious and telling me things about his life background. Divorced and having 4 amazing kids and I doesn’t really surprise for me in fact it was interesting for me. But our conversation is not too long to keep going so we stop for a while and try to connect again if we have chances. But it was the moment opening my door to him and the chances of letting him in in my stories of life.